Sorry for the long silence! Its been a busy emotion-filled, anxiety ridden, pretty fun couple of months. I guess the reason I’ve been so quiet is that it becomes difficult to write when I run out of novel experiences. Life seems pretty normal here. But since you’ve been so patient, here are some pictures of the kittens that were born in my bed!
And now on to the topic at hand. My service is almost over. I’ve got about three weeks left. So now is the time to be pulling back on work-related stuff, more just being available to offer advice rather than organizing or leading anything. Its time to start making plans back home. Its time to start saying goodbye.
Some things feel good. I enjoy watching my students plan their own activities, and make decisions as a group. I only hope they continue to carry this great momentum forward. I just celebrated Tobaski with my host family, which was a really nice day, and I felt valued and as if I belonged. My host mother is pregnant and due to give birth any minute, and its been fun to anticipate the baby along with her, and plan the naming ceremony. A big community party with all my friends would be a nice way to end things. But I’m also excited to be making plans back home. I’m ready to see my family! I’m ready to eat some burritos! I’m currently in the process of applying for M. Ed. programs around the country, and its exciting to be thinking about the next step.
This is also pretty scary. In as much as I am looking forward to being home, I don’t think its going to be an easy transition. What about jobs? Is it going to be difficult to relate to people? Will they have a difficult time relating to me? Will my friendships pick back up where they were two years ago? What if I don’t get into any Master’s programs? I think 70 degrees is COLD, what about Michigan winters!?
Also, I’m feeling sad. I have genuine friends here, and that is going to be difficult to leave. I’ve watched a number of children grow and learn over the course of two years, and it’s a bummer to think of not being here to see them continue.
I wish you all a wonderful holiday season, I’ll be seeing you before you know it. Eeek.
1 comment:
Whitney, amazing your two years are almost up. It's good that you're feeling sad about leaving. Closing chapters are painful, particularly if they've been so rich for you in relationships. Good! I so very clearly remember my last couple days in Bolivia. The hardest I've ever cried, and the most intense emotions all around, and I loved it in so many ways, so grateful that I felt things so strongly. Just appreciate the intensity. Not sure where you're returning to, but try to hook up with the RPCV crowd. That helped me immensely. Didn't matter that people weren't Bolivia RPCVs, just that shared experience of PC was so terrific for bonding. Most of my current friends are those I made from the RPCV crowd my first few years back.
Of course, most grad schools have some RPCV grouping, so seek it out. Very very awesome people, of course, as you're now almost one of them.
Live these next weeks as fully as you possibly can.
--Carolyn
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